Wednesday, April 19, 2006
sigh..its 12.30 in the morning nw..i just came back frm the
hospital..i am reali lost nw..nvr felt so afraid b4..and haven
cried in a LONG time..
i was using the com nicely jus now as i tot my grandma was
fine..after awhile on the com..at bout 8.15pm and when my
mum came into the room and said tt my dad called to say
tt my grandma was not in good condition.so we rushed over
to the hospital..
wen we reached dere.the docs were all checking on her..so i
din get a chance to see her at all..all i knew was tt wen my
dad was with her at the hospital earlier on,tt she was fine till
she was wheeled into the ward,she started to fight for air
even thought the oxygen tube was placed on her..
we waited for a long time..my tears just flowed without me
noticing..den at bout 9.15pm the doc was trying to stabelise
my grandma's condition and den push her into the SICU..
(intensive care unit)..i din like the sound of it..well outside
the icu,there was 22 of my family altogether..was on the fone
with xin er at first..den soon char,ting wen,pris n wenya oso.
den i was nt reali in the mood as i was waiting to go into see
my grandma..after i hanged up on them i went into the icu..
it was not at all like wat i imagined..my grandma was beyond
recognition..so pale..with an oxygen mask covering her entire
face..she was topless so that it would help her breathe better.
i couldn't stop crying seeing her in that state..i reali din knw
hw to help her..i was just crying n my aunt was nxt to me and
she was also trying to control her tears..all who went in n saw
my grandma,came out in tears..she took care of me for 15 yrs
of my life..and i couldn't do anything to help her..all i could
do was sit n pray and pray and pray..
tml i have no concentration to study and no mood to be in
sch..so i guess i'll just be outside sch after sch ends..i'll be in e
hospital in the morning i guess..
to those who were on the fone with me just now:
thanks for the prayer and concern..
to joelle:
thanks..reali appreciated it..i will try to handle this and be
strong..thanks for being dere..it helped.
kiss it
